Monday, July 28, 2008

Bloody Inertia

People are leaving the company.
Old friends and acquiantances,
Batchmates and disillusioned souls.

Just the other day, I got a call from StratSearch. Obviously it is a headhunting outfit, but I wasn't in the mood to talk about the present and play dice with my future. So I was as honest as I could be to the pretty voice on the other end: I am busy right now, could they just call at some other time? Oh, yes we could accomodate you. Would three tomorrow be fine? Yes. Good bye.

They never called back. Which is just as well. I wouldn't have known what to say if they did.

It's an open secret. But everybody who's anybody in the biz have received at least one such call. Most entertain them, in the oft chance that life would deal them a better hand, or consent to reshuffling the deck altogether. Funny, a few even make active attempts to reach out to these "search firms." They call it their weekly habit. Which is the 8th, by the way.

Tonight I got asked by my rose. Did I ever consider leaving? I remember asking, to no one in particular, why some people make such a big fuss about it. It's about the future. Charting your destiny, she said. I hang my head and say nothing.

Of course I think of the future too. Our future. You and me. But would it be impossible to not leave, and achieve your dreams in the same breath? People who desert simply because something or someone made them grossly unhappy would only find the same reasons waiting for them elsewhere.

Don't they get it? I feel so sad and so alone.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Not forgotten, All forgiven

life is full of regrets...

it's sad when people you know,
become people you knew.
when you can walk right past someone
like they were never a big part of your life.
how you used to talk for hours
and now you can barely look at them anymore.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

A rose by any other name...

Ang masasabi ko lang, it's the little things you tend to notice. And oftentimes, they're the only things that count.


5. Getting IM'd out of the blue para sumama in a Friday-night gimik with her barkada

4. Drawing you back to the conversation kapag bigla kang tumatahimik

3. Pouring your san mig light into a glass when it overflowed from the bottle

2. Going through the length of the table to dance close to you

1. Asking you if you had fun


I've been walking on air the whole weekend. Kinda makes me wanna wish Monday would come sooner (tama ba 'yun??).

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